I've not updated my blog for a little while. To be entirely honest with all of you, I'm feeling a little lost. At the moment I'm floating from one day to the next in the hopes that I will remember to breath. I need to vent, to write, but once again too many people read my blog and assumptions will be made about whether I'm happy or not. And I am, happy.... I just feel lost?! Does that make sense. Maybe it's my hormones playing havock. Maybe it's the fact that I really don't feel all that safe or comfortable in my home, it's still such a disaster area, and we are 3 and a half months post baby birth, and I still don't have a nursery, or one complete room to live in, over a year later. Could be that I really haven't had maternity leave, when you own your own business you just don't get that privilage. I just don't have the strength to do anything other than exist. The only thing that gives me true joy at the moment is my son.
So there you have it, perhaps I have confused you more than I've confused me... but that's how I feel. Totally and utterly lost!