My blog is going to change, it's going to morph, and quite possibly it is not going to be the happy space it once was, all the time.
This last week I've had to imagine my life without my other half, about the uncertainty of life and how quickly it can be cut short.
I've learned that a single mother is an amazing creature, that one copes when they have to, and that you can in deed cry every night. That empty bed syndrome is very real, that the state of our Government Hospitals is so shocking that it's difficult to comprehend. That a child misses his father, even when he cannot speak and that your heart can break by looking at an X Ray. I've seen that I can be more angry than I ever imagined and that you can only bargain with God for so long before you no longer believe.
This week I've had to imagine my life without my husband, and the uncertainty of how long his life will be...